Vegas was fun, super random but fun nonetheless. There was definitely sunshine, and definitely basketball. So I got what I asked for!
But....on the way home from Vegas to St George I had the weirdest experience.
We were listening to the Beatles for easily the tenth time that trip. And we listened to Let It Be for easily the 100th time in my life. But for some reason something just hit me.
I feel like i'm discontent these days. I wish I could explain it. That one feeling where I wish some things were going different, or I feel like I'm missing out on something. Where I want answers but am just not getting them. When my stomach just aches for no reason. I am sure everyone can relate. It's not always, just sometimes, and pretty rare for that matter. There isn't one thing that's wrong, definitely not one thing specifically, just something. Some mysterious thing that is making me want to cry sometimes or curl into a ball. Nothing too dramatic I promise! Just a weird feeling sometimes.
But when I was listening to this song I just felt so peaceful. Finally right?!
And from a Beatles song?? Really??
I always wonder whether I'm trying to push my will on my Heavenly Father rather than trusting his divine, heavenly, perfect, healing advice. I know that I deny his peace by pushing what I want instead, I'm sure I do it all the time. The price I pay for being stubborn I guess. But, there will be an answer if I just let things be. If I choose to be happy, look for the positive, remember my blessings, and keep an open mind, there will be an answer for all things. It's been proven to me many times that things never work when I get what I want, it is when i'm willing to forget what I want and accept the will of my Father in Heaven that my life goes smoothly. That is when I feel closest to him and the path that he wants me on. Sometimes I don't know if I'm walking blindly or coasting it out until my answer comes. But as the Beatles say in my favorite verse...
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
He will always be there whispering those words of wisdom that I need to hear. I just need to Let It Be
I remember feeling this way so much! It is so scary and yet so exciting to just enjoy the ride and trust the person driving (Heavenly Father). Although...I don't know if the Beatles are the best role models, didn't they compare themselves to Jesus? (totally just kidding!) Love ya sis-in-law!
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ReplyDeleteHay baby! I simply love you and reading your blog!! I won't lie you had me thinking you were going into Asian studies for a minute there on your April Fools post hahaha. It's good to know that I'm not the only one who has days where you just can't put your finger on what is bothering you. You couldn't have said it better though. I just need to let it be and trust Heavenly Father. Don't know what I'm going to do without you all summer!!
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