Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Living in a world of contradiction

Contradictions.

Obviously life is always full of them. There are always things we want to do that oppose the things we should do.

But sometimes life seems more full of them than others.

This is definitely one of those times.

Everything I want seems to contradict another thing I want. There are few circumstances where I can have both, so I find myself with a lot of hard decisions on my plate.

Decisions that need to be made on a timeline. And I know that anytime I need to make decisions on a timeline, things go real wrong. If anything, I just shut down to the point where no decisions get made. But the deadlines still approach, the decisions do not go away, and I am left standing on their doorstep not knowing what i'm going to say until the exact second they open the door.

I'm like that at restaurants. I am always deciding between two things up until the very second the waiter asks me what I want. In the rush of the decisions I spit one out. In that scenario, I almost always spit out the wrong one.

Some things are too important to spit out the wrong answer. Luckily some aren't as influential like what I eat for dinner. But some have consequences lasting far beyond the next meal.

But for now, like usual, I will put the decisions off to the side and make one minor one now.

Homework vs gym.

Yesterday I picked homework.

Today I pick gym.

8 miles on the agenda today. Longest i've run since the marathon so we'll see how it goes!

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