Give it to me

Got the reviews!

I have quickly learned that I haven't developed a thick skin yet. Maybe I will in the future?

But I doubt it.

I was talking to my favorite professor today. She is the most kind, caring, funny woman and I want to be a professor just like her one day! And she told me that reviews still influence her.

Lovely.

So I am destined to a life where one days happiness rests in the hands of college students.

They were good, I mean, my ratings were right on par, if not slightly above BYU's, sociology's, and this courses usual ratings. So that is nice. It means people thought they learned a lot, I taught clearly, I stuck with the aims of BYU, and I was able to bring in the spirit of the gospel when applicable. There was one person who seemed to disagree with some of those things, but I guess you can't please everyone.

The comment section is where my heart strings get tugged a little harder...

Things I learned:

1. Someone likes my hair
2. They were surprised this was the first class I taught
3. They enjoyed class material
4. Someone believes I don't conduct myself professionally by wearing jeans and t-shirts so it was hard to take me seriously because I was their age
5. I can seem timid and reserved, probably a result of my age
6. I am great at letting people express and develop their own opinions
7. Focus my questions to talk about key concepts

And the overall comment was that they thought I was insightful and didn't think I was better than them.

Things I will do better at as a result:

1. Wear a skirt once a week
2. Make sure every question I ask is worth while
3. Keep guiding discussion so that people can feel comfortable expressing their own opinion
4. Whatever is happening, act confident

All in all, a few were hard to read, but SO much better than they could have been. You can't please everyone, but I at least seemed to appease most people.

A sigh of relief in my head, but my heart keeps making me re-read the negative ones.

How come that is how life is? It's so much easier to internalize the bad, while the good quietly slips by unnoticed?